My dreams are simple really, but have so many damn layers that it becomes overwhelming.
Two dreams really, becoming a great photographer and having a family. The first part I realise all about doing it and keeping at it.
But the second part is just where to even start, so I'm trying to break it down to steps and go backwards from that.
- Having a family and provide a secure life and future for them.
- For that I need a steady good paying job.
- Where to even start with that, being a starving artist isn't really ideal.
- I need permanent housing, good housing.
- Who even can buy a house nowadays? I'm already old and will never be able to save money for something like that.
- Have something that will take care of the family even Im gone, meaning saving, investments and all that.
- As with housing, being an old man already and only thing I have to show for myself is debt. I know nothing about investing and me being a socialist to the bone doesn't really help either. But it still a must if I want to provide for my family.
- I need to attract a woman who also wants a family.
- I really need to get in shape but eating shit food is how I love myself so I have such hard with it.
- Finances, If there is something I have found is I can't be a socialist artist when it comes to being a family man. So many times I have heard that I should be rich and have my house in order already at my age if I want a woman in my life for something serious as starting a family. Of course it makes sense, to dedicate herself to something like that she needs to know she will be taken care of.
So how I see it I need to start finding a job, then having at least an ok place to live, then save and invest AND THEN find a woman. But that is years and years of things I need to do and I fear that at some point I will just simple be too old.
Either way, first goal, make steady money!
