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Congrats on continuing to work through it! Sounds like you're still making all of the right moves.
you are ABSOLUTELY not becoming burden ... in fact - i genuinely like talking to you about stuff!
that's good to hear ... and i hope you can do it!I really want to break that habit. This is the first time I've ever actually felt regret and would miss a lot of you if I followed through. I can't promise that something like this won't happen again, but I do promise to at least be upfront about it next time. I don't want folks to worry about me.
take your time ... however long you need ... and then come back and let us knowI'm probably not going to be back to posting for a little while yet though I will be setting my avatar again soon. I look forward to chatting with you all again!
I know the feeling, you are perfectly fine. Hold on and come at any time you'd likeI spoke a little about it with lashman and I figured I owed it to anyone else that might be curious. The past week or so I've kind of been through Hell. A lot of personal stuff, a bunch of worries about bills and money and a dash of depression.
In a couple posts over the months I've mentioned how I rarely stick with one forum for long. It's never because of the people that post there, it's because I worry that my near constant troubles will scare folks off or they'll start to ignore me due to growing tired of hearing it. I've dealt with it outside of the internet and as I mentioned in my long post about myself it's just easier for me to vanish. The moment I feel that I'm becoming a burden or no longer have a purpose I bail.
I really want to break that habit. This is the first time I've ever actually felt regret and would miss a lot of you if I followed through. I can't promise that something like this won't happen again, but I do promise to at least be upfront about it next time. I don't want folks to worry about me.
I'm probably not going to be back to posting for a little while yet though I will be setting my avatar again soon. I look forward to chatting with you all again!
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You're one of us. We stick together, and you will never be a burden. Stay strong.I spoke a little about it with lashman and I figured I owed it to anyone else that might be curious. The past week or so I've kind of been through Hell. A lot of personal stuff, a bunch of worries about bills and money and a dash of depression.
In a couple posts over the months I've mentioned how I rarely stick with one forum for long. It's never because of the people that post there, it's because I worry that my near constant troubles will scare folks off or they'll start to ignore me due to growing tired of hearing it. I've dealt with it outside of the internet and as I mentioned in my long post about myself it's just easier for me to vanish. The moment I feel that I'm becoming a burden or no longer have a purpose I bail.
I really want to break that habit. This is the first time I've ever actually felt regret and would miss a lot of you if I followed through. I can't promise that something like this won't happen again, but I do promise to at least be upfront about it next time. I don't want folks to worry about me.
I'm probably not going to be back to posting for a little while yet though I will be setting my avatar again soon. I look forward to chatting with you all again!
I know the feeling, you are perfectly fine. Hold on and come at any time you'd like
co-signed!
awwww ... thanks, man ... you're the bestest!!!
I wish I had the artistic talent to have drawn these.. or any artistic talent really, but no, I found them a couple years ago on a Night in the Woods fansite and they had originally been taken from someone's tumblr. Sadly I forget the artist's name. She did some pretty great work outside of these avatars.awwww ... thanks, man ... you're the bestest!!!
by the way - i always wanted to ask, but keep forgetting to do it, lol ... you're the one drawing your avatars, right?
ahh, i see ... still coolI wish I had the artistic talent to have drawn these.. or any artistic talent really, but no, I found them a couple years ago on a Night in the Woods fansite and they had originally been taken from someone's tumblr. Sadly I forget the artist's name. She did some pretty great work outside of these avatars.
And I guess it makes a little more sense now when MonthOLDpickle jokingly asked me to draw a couple funny pictures at least.
i was just wondering because you keep changing them quite often, haha
Ha! Yeah, it helps that there's 8 of them to choose from and since they're similar enough it helps so that I don't throw folks off with an entirely brand new avatar. I am the one that did pride-ify a few of them though. Which took me far longer to figure out than it probably should have.ahh, i see ... still cool
haha, nice!Ha! Yeah, it helps that there's 8 of them to choose from and since they're similar enough it helps so that I don't throw folks off with an entirely brand new avatar. I am the one that did pride-ify a few of them though. Which took me far longer to figure out than it probably should have.
and yeah, they are pretty cool!
That's very touching, and I'm glad you are finally feeling a bit of the positivity you deserve. Keep going
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Sorry to hear the relationship ended. But I am happy that you're doing okay!Broke up with my girlfriend and for once I don't feel like a piece of shit.
Yeah had been thinking about for awhile but was too scared but felt wrong to keep stringing her along. So hit the gym next right? That's what one is supposed to do after a break up? HahaSorry to hear the relationship ended. But I am happy that you're doing okay!
That really sucks, although the fact that you are feeling better is really great to hear. It's a new chapterBroke up with my girlfriend and for once I don't feel like a piece of shit.
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It's actually a good thing, I initiated the break up after all.That really sucks, although the fact that you are feeling better is really great to hear. It's a new chapter
she was awesome but I felt little that I don't need to be in a relationship, for everything I want to do it might be better to be on my own. Also that I have strong feelings for an ex who something writes how much she fantasies about me haha. But she has a boyfriend, just because he can provide a good life, pffft damned capitalistic society.
I'm going to be a little cold and naive but if she feels like she doesn't want to choose you and goes instead for who gives her a good life, maybe it isn't the kind of "love" you'd want anyway. After two years of travel, I get what you mean by the kind of freedom and flexibility being on your own provides. I also have to say that I've seen couples just be amazing together in that life as well, depending on the person it might work for you tooIt's actually a good thing, I initiated the break up after all.
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Well I'm a hard man to choose haha, since well I'm a homeless bum without a job. She saw me at my worst. As she said, she can't chose me because she needs stability. Of course she loves her boyfriend but not in a passionate way. She has tried to leave but always been talked back into it. Like I get it, I would also chose someone with a nice apartment and job!I'm going to be a little cold and naive but if she feels like she doesn't want to choose you and goes instead for who gives her a good life, maybe it isn't the kind of "love" you'd want anyway. After two years of travel, I get what you mean by the kind of freedom and flexibility being on your own provides. I also have to say that I've seen couples just be amazing together in that life as well, depending on the person it might work for you too
My friend, life is about setting up goals and trying to reach them out. As you linked after your post, we arent designed to be happy, rather to find peace and discover new shit out there.
I appreciate you reaching out, Z1g, and I'm well tuned to pulling myself up by my boot straps and taking control of the wheel. Unfortunately, I also have type 2 bipolar disorder and due to familial reasons, I work my struggles out through exercise, art, and meditation. I'd rather not rot my organs with prescription medication the way my mother has for something which I can treat otherwise. As a result, sometimes I'm a little uneven and in the gutter, and end up posting things like that post.
Get cannabis oil, you can always talk to me if you need any somethingI appreciate you reaching out, Z1g, and I'm well tuned to pulling myself up by my boot straps and taking control of the wheel. Unfortunately, I also have type 2 bipolar disorder and due to familial reasons, I work my struggles out through exercise, art, and meditation. I'd rather not rot my organs with prescription medication the way my mother has for something which I can treat otherwise. As a result, sometimes I'm a little uneven and in the gutter, and end up posting things like that post.
Currently more focused than ever on getting my video work back into gear though. I need to do something creative with my life or I really have a missed opportunity on my hands. At least that's what I infer from all the self-help and buddhist books I read.
Salut, and hail Satan.
Sorry to hear about the rough spot you're in.
I can understand that worry. Especially when you've made sure to double and triple check everything. But it does seem like she made sure to take every precaution and hopefully you two will be able to get in contact and talk soon.My mom just left this morning to visit in Dubai to meet her new husband. I am scared as fuck since she might be arrested at the airport there for unauthorized drugs. She looked up the medications on the embassary website and the medicine aren't on their ban list. Still, I am so fucking concerned that she will be taken to jail in Dubai.
I sent her a message on whatsapp to check if she is okay. I feel like I am crying now.
The small things will be the roughest for a while. There's things like hearing the name of a certain athlete or musician that make me remember my brother. Or the times I play the NBA 2k series and remember the fun we had.
damn, dude .... that sucks donkey balls
I feel you. I have seen this and sympathy suffers from prejudice a lot. You did amazing to get this far. I have family members who have gone through quitting and I know at least a little bit of the pain. You are doing awesome and I sympathize with people just beating down on you when you are doing your best with the struggle you have.
Thank you. Sometimes it takes someone who has suffered to understand, especially with nicotine use. I don't pressure any smokers I see to vape nor would I ever give them shit. I started this year at .015% nic, slid back to .03%, fought back to .01% this month. I'm working on going exclusively unflavored due to both the moral panic and my desire to no longer smell like vape flavors. (which is a thing!)
Sorry that I don't have any help to offer.. but you're definitely not alone when it comes to that feeling.Just recovered from an anxiety attack that i got for basically no particular reason.
Just saw something that sent me into a spontanous downwards spiral.
Sure sucks having moodswings and being able to go from being fine to wanting to kill yourself to being fine again in a whopping 30 minutes.
Right now i'm okay tho.
Think i'll chug some and go to bed early
Hahaha, I can relate to thatSorry that I don't have any help to offer.. but you're definitely not alone when it comes to that feeling.
I was in a very similar spot yesterday. One minor screw up on my part that didn't affect anyone or anything, but was just enough to cause me to hate myself. It's been like that quite often for me during the past week.
I am glad to hear you're in a better mood now and I hope things will take a turn in a positive direction for you!
Yeah, that's pretty accurate.
